Owning It!

It's time to own it! I started back on my weight loss journey 7 weeks ago today; I'm doing great! However, I haven't truly "owned" where I started... mostly out of shame. I was ashamed at how far I let myself go before taking control of my body and health. And I was afraid to admit it to anyone, including myself.

Granted, half of the reason why I gained so much weight in the first place was because of my Bipolar. I gained 40 pounds in 2 months because of the medication I was on at the time, then I went to Morocco and gained another 10 pounds because we were absolutely spoiled in Morocco and did nothing but eat, eat, eat and eat some more!

After getting back from Morocco I gained another 20 pounds because I was pre-diabetic and I was hungry ALL the time - I would just eat anything and everything. I tried to stop buying the not-so-good stuff like chips but I was addicted to soda and was consuming it almost intravenously!

So 70 pounds on top of the weight I still had left over from pre and post pregnancy with Ilyas - I was in really bad shape. When I weighed in for my starting weight I wasn't surprised, but I was severely disappointed - 267! WOAH - Ok, I finally said it out loud. *sniff sniff*

I was really successful on Weight Watchers (aka WW) before - I lost 77 pounds on WW a few years ago and I'm ready to rock it out this time too! My goal weight is 135 - 140 - I have a total of 132 - 137 pounds to lose. I've already said goodbye to 15.6 of those pounds - so I have another 116 - 121 pounds to conquer! I can totally do it - but first I have to own it!

I'm going to start weighing in weekly on my blog to share my successes, setbacks (if any - hopefully non), and my general feelings.